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I'm so goddamm tired. Just, everything that's going on in my life right now is killing me. I wish I could turn back and slit my wrists the first time I got a fucking chance. God, life is horrible. I'm not just physically exhausted. It's mental and emotional as well. I can't keep distracting myself with games and movies and books and television and music. It's gonna end up destroying me.


Ha, what's new with that? Ugh, I feel so horrible. I'm the worst sister in the world. And I'm unattractive as hell. And lazy and just horrible as a person. God, fuck my life.



Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck FUCK
Okay, it has been MONTHS. I just plain forgot about this site. I think I'm outgrowing it entirely. So, I'm probably gonna pop in a few times to see what's going on, but not much. Sorry y'all. But, if you wanna chill with me, find my newest Tumblr(I know this is my fifth one, don't fight it) abosolutelyinsanegeek. I write prompts and reblog a ton of shit on there, so check it out! I'm also on AO3. MadameAwesome. I mainly write Marvel fanfiction, but that will change in the future. I think that's all for now. Stay awesome, peeps. E-Sane, out.
  It all started one sunny afternoon when Vasha was hungry. He'd been walking home from his summer job when his stomach begn to growl. So, of course, he looked around and went into the first open resturant he spotted. Inside, he slid into a booth. That's when be first really noticed her. Sure, he'd seen her around town a couple of times, but Vasha hadn't really talked to her before. But, here she was, an actual angel. All Vasha mnew about her was she didn't like it all that much when boys tried to court her.
  "Sir? Are you alright?"
  Vasha snapped out of his mind and looked up at the waiter  who'd come to help him.
  "Oh, yes. I'd like a cup of coffee."
  The waiter raised an eyebrow, "Are you sure that's all I can get you? One of our chefs makes some very good Sushki."
  "That sounds good," Vasha mumbled. Throughout this conversation, he hadn't taken his eyes off the woman with the wavy hair and the fierce eyes. He already knew that she had an everlasting fire in her. There's no way someone with those kind of eyes can be dull. Vasha didn't notice when the waitress moved away. Eventually, the woman looked up, giving poor Vasha a puzzeled look.
  He tilted his head down in shame at being caught staring. He heard footsteps and prayed they weren't hers. He had a feeling he'd regret it if he pissed her off.
  "Hello, cutie."
  Vasha looked up in astonishment. She'd just caught him staring at her and, instead of kicking him out, this woman had come over to talk to him.
  "You're beautiful" he blurted out. The women looked startled. She stared at him with wide eyes for what felt like forever. Vasha blushed and tried to fix his mistake, "I mean, I think you're beautiful. And I'm sure many other men think so too. And your personality is probably wonderful. That's weird. I'm sorry."
  The woman burst into laughter, surprising Vasha. She laughed for a few minutes before caing it down to chuckles so she could speak, "Oh, oh ho ho, I'm so sorry, but you look cute when you're flustered."
  She wiped her eyes and sighed before holding out a hand, "My name is Ruslana. And you are?"
  The man stared at her hand for a second before shyly taking hold of it, "I am Vasha. It is wonderful to meet you, Ruslana."
  "It is good to meet you, too, Vasha. I like your name. I should be getting back to the kitchen now. I'll see you around."
  Vasha nodded. The woman- Ruslana- walked back to the kitchen. She threw a wink at him over her shoulder.
  It seemed to Vasha like this chance encounter was over. He got his food and his drink. He ate in silence, thinking about Ruslana. The restaurant got busier as he ate. Then, he heard a shout from the kitchen.
  "One of you bitch ass waiters get over here and do your fucking job!"
  Vasha would be lying if he said that didn't send his poor heart racing in his chest. He decided right then and there that this woman would be his, no matter what.
How Vasha met Ruslana
So, :icon-saxitlurg: has a series calling Simon and Vya and I'm in love with the romance between Vya's parents. So, I wrote this drabble. Everything here is based entirely off of what I think is their characters. I'm sorry if this is OOC, this is what I feel is going on with them.
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Time
is Love
Moments of us
Moments that become Memories


Memories that stay within forever
Every moment stored away
Whole, yet Broken
That's our
Love


Heartbreak
is Pain
Pain becomes Numbness
Numbers brings about Lies
Lies eventually transform into Truths
Truth brings about Someone new
Someone steals Kisses
Kisses become
Love


Awakening
Everyone's gone
Fighting for nothing
You're not with me
But you were standing there
You're my friend, right?
Where are you?
Remember me?
Sleep


Gone
You're dead
Yet, you're here
You're somehow still alive
I will rummage for you
Until you come back
I will struggle
Until you're
Here


Forgetting
My love
I couldn't remember
They took you away
And now I have you
I remember every touch
Please be patient
I'm trying
Remembering


Theirs
Their tool
The anonymous Asset
They used my strength
You found me and smiled
You brought me back
You loved me
Your friend
Yours


Red
Filling it
The hole within
I was a Monster
Why did you spare me?
You offered something valuable
A new life
A friend
White


Bullets
Piercing me
I fall down
You come to me
Pull me into your safety
Go back for them
My favorite weapons
Bow and
Arrows


Snark
Super Genius
Billionaire, Playboy, Philanthropist
But nothing without you
You are my better half
You're better without me
Handsome, Nice, Good
Love your
Banter


Lost
Without love
Hiding from life
Wishing, Praying for death
You saw the person within
Tame the Green Beast
Bring me Home
Don't go
Found


Blinded
By Accident
Orphaned and Isolated
Life hated my Existence
I fight Tooth and Nail
I will fight Life
The Red Devil
The Survivor
Seeing


Alone
Abandoned, Forgotten
Then you appeared
And I love you
We started a new life
And you love me
I feel strong
We are
Together


Ugly
To everyone
Tortured by Voices
Hatred fills my Life
But I smile through it
Pretend it doesn't exist
Couldn't fool you
Baby, you're
Beautiful


Strong
To them
So they ridicule
Publish their False Truth
And I take their pictures
But they are wrong
I'm not strong
I am
Weak


God
Powerful, Immortal
Can do Anything
Without fearing Punishment
Stronger than all of you
I am not strong
I fall as
You do
Human


Brother
You're adopted
But you're mine
Please, love me again
Don't fall into your darkness
Don't fight against me
You aren't faulty
Father's the
Betrayer


Bad
To Heroes
All but one
A starving college kid
He has fallen for me
I love him, too
I am better
He is
Good


Heroes
You say
But we aren't
We are simply here
We can't even save ourselves
Why trust our logic?
We call out
Help us
Villains
Random Poetry
So, I got bored in school a few weeks back and wrote all this. I don't know what to call it, but it's short and cute I guess. 
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Okay, it's been fucking forever. But, I'm back because I need to vent real quick.

1) I'm at my mom's house and they left to get McDonalds a little while ago. And they're not back yet.
So, why is it I heard a bump and then a child-like GIGGLE????
I'm so fucking screwed.

2) I keep hearing about the Phandom and I decided to check out some of their videos and GOD. I'm in love with these guys who don't know they're gay for each other. So, I think I'm gonna join the Phandom.
That is, if I survive past tonight.

3) I've also started shipping Matt Murdock and his best friend, Foggy, from the Netflix show Daredevil. I'm hooked on this shit, guys. Fucking hell.

So, that's all for now, I'm always watching, I'm about to fucking die, and I'm joined the Phandom. Later. :P
I'm so goddamm tired. Just, everything that's going on in my life right now is killing me. I wish I could turn back and slit my wrists the first time I got a fucking chance. God, life is horrible. I'm not just physically exhausted. It's mental and emotional as well. I can't keep distracting myself with games and movies and books and television and music. It's gonna end up destroying me.


Ha, what's new with that? Ugh, I feel so horrible. I'm the worst sister in the world. And I'm unattractive as hell. And lazy and just horrible as a person. God, fuck my life.



Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck FUCK

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CoolFireBird Featured By Owner Jul 25, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Undertale: Evacuting Snowdin by CoolFireBird Thank you so much for the fav!
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E-Sane Featured By Owner Jul 25, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
I enjoyed the art. In my opinion, you earned it.
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CoolFireBird Featured By Owner Jul 28, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thank you so much!
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TotallyDeviantLisa Featured By Owner Mar 25, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks so much for the faves! :)
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WolfBarr974 Featured By Owner Mar 13, 2015  Student Artist
Oh my gosh!  Thank you so much for the watch!  Your the best! ... friend ;)
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E-Sane Featured By Owner Mar 13, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Your Welcome, buddy. ;)
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WolfBarr974 Featured By Owner Mar 13, 2015  Student Artist
;)
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E-Sane Featured By Owner Mar 13, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
And I'm acting like a huge dork again XD
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Envarchy Featured By Owner Feb 3, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thank you so much for the watch! ;w;
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E-Sane Featured By Owner Feb 3, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Well, you're a pretty awesome dude. <3 Stay cool, bro. 
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